\u201cWhat makes me most happy is travelling and meeting different people. I seem to make friends more easily when I am abroad. I hope to travel to Slovenia this summer to meet a woman with whom I fell in love last year, but I will need to save money, which is difficult on benefits and a long-distance relationship is difficult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As a teenager, I had to stay in the Adolescent Unit of Stratheden Hospital in Fife and was kept there for two and a half years. The longer I stayed there, the more and more depressed I became. At the age of 17, I wrote a book about my experiences there, entitled, “The Madhouse of Love”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Due to my education having been disrupted, I have never had a good job, although I was quite clever at school, and have had to survive by doing unskilled jobs, interspersed with periods of unemployment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In 2006, I returned to Holland, where I had worked before, but things didn’t work out and I ended up almost starving in a tent outside Amsterdam. I managed to get back to Edinburgh, where I became homeless. I stayed at the Salvation Army Hostel for about nine months before finding a flat from the council in sheltered housing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My life has been very up and down recently, and, at times, I have been severely depressed. I am generally very isolated for most of the time and that has led to severe anxiety and depression. There have been times when I have been nearly suicidal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Relationships have been the only things that have given meaning to my life, apart from artistic activities and travelling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I could achieve anything in life, it would be to be recognised as a writer and a musician.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The only thing that gives me hope for the future is the possibility that I still might be able form a relationship.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"